Magali Lopez
Life Changing Event
The day that had an impact in my life, I remember, was a hot night in the summer on June 20, 2007 at 10.01 p.m. I still have it in my mind like it happened yesterday. My personal experience was giving birth to my precious little boy Fernando. Yes, of course this taught me a lesson in many ways more than anything in my entire 22 years of life. For example, it helped me to grow more as a person, and also to be more mature. This experience taught me how to be responsible with my son’s needs and my own things.
My son Fernando not only impacted my life, but he also completely changed it, too. My son changed my thoughts, feelings, and my behavior. Before I had my son I used to be selfish and mean. I didn’t care about anybody, what my parents said, or even how they felt when they were sick. I had a different thoughts and feelings. I was very immature and disrespectful with everyone. I did whatever I wanted to do without thinking what consequences it might bring. It never came to my mind that my actions were hurting others people’s feelings, especially my parents. Now I think more and sometimes I think twice before I do something, and about the consequences this choice may have and how it may affect my son’s life. Now I know what feelings really mean, like when my son gets hurt, or if he is sick, I can feel it inside my heart and I get very upset and worried about my little man. Then I realize that I am a mother that has feelings and worries about her child. After this experience that I had with my child I changed a lot, and sometimes I ask my parents to please forgive me if I hurt their feelings. I ask them please understand that I was a teenager that I didn’t care and thought that everything was easy in life, and how wrong I was.
In addition, my son impacts my life in the way that now that I am a mom everything seems clearer to me. After this unique experience, I completely understand my parents and how much can you love someone without expecting something in return. I also know that as a mom, I do anything for my son. This makes me remember when my mom use to tell us that she would do anything for us, or to even give her life away to save any of us. I use to think she must be crazy. I always thought and asked my self how this could be possible? Why would you give everything you have or your life for your child? Now I know that I could do the same thing for my son without even thinking it twice. I also comprehend that I would do exactly the same thing my mom would do.
On the other hand, it was very difficult being a mommy at the age of 20 and not having completed my education. It’s also hard because my son depends on me and no one else. Like for example, if I don’t work my son doesn’t have food to eat or a place to sleep. It’s very difficult for me and at the same thing challenging, because I have a full time job and I am also a full time student at college. There were some times that I had to leave the hospital where my son was hospitalized in order to make it to my finals. In those moments I thought that I had to quit school, my son was more important than anything else. But at the same time my son, Fernando, gives me the energy to get up every morning and to start another day without thinking about giving up on anything I do. To put love and effort in everything, no matter what it may be, just to do my best.
My son is the light of my eyes, the air that I breathe. He is my biggest encouragement that keeps me reaching for my goal. Those stairs, step by step, that one day I thought that I was never going to reach, and now I see them very close to me. Leaving behind the past with all those bad moments we had. My son has impacted my entire life because since the first day I hold him in my arms, I knew he had brought hope and lost of joy to my life. Till to day I never thought that something so small could affected it my entire life like this. Neither, that I could love someone before ever meeting them. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never felt my heart broke into hundreds of pieces when I couldn’t stop the hurt. Before I became a mom I didn’t’ knew the feeling of having my heart outside of my body.
